His burdened Heart

I will be glad and rejoice in your unfailing love, for you have seen my troubles, and you care about the anguish of my soul. Psalm 31:7

I will rejoice! I said I will rejoice! Even through my trials and what ever the enemy brings my way, I will rejoice! This week has been a week of heavy spiritual warfare for me. There has been points where I have been crawling on the ground trying to find strength to pick myself up. But through it all I will rejoice because I serve a God that cares and no matter what His plans for my life will never change. He is faithful! 

As I came upon the verse Psalm 31:7 it shows God's heart for His children but also how we should react when we are facing hard times in our lives, He cares! As I was thinking of His heart for His children the Lord reminded me of a dream  He gave me a month ago where I was saving children out of slavery. Some of you may not know that children are sold in many 3rd world countries into child labor or sex slavery. India is one of the biggest child slavery countries in the world. Girls at the age of 5 are sold by their parents into sex slavery and boys into beggars. Most of these children don't ever make it to be adults because they are disposed of when they are of no use or some of the children are burned alive. There are 35 million orphaned children in India and most of those children live on the streets. Does that break your heart? because it breaks God's heart! 

As the Lord reminded me of that dream of saving these children he also showed me what it meant to be in their place. It was such darkness that I have never felt before and a hopelessness... However, as the weeks passed by I forgot about that dream. Then today as I go to check my mail I see a book called "No longer a Slumdog." I have no idea who sent me this book. It was about horrible stories of children in India and what they go through everyday. I could not continue to read the book because I was sobbing so bad while reading it. It broke my heart into pieces. Then I heard the Lord say, "it's ok to cry because I am giving you my heart."

My plans for going to India were not to work with the orphaned children there but the Lord is clearly speaking to me and giving me His heart for the children there. He has woken up that passion I once had for orphaned children. The Lord sees his children hurting as it says, ...for you have seen my troubles, and you care about the anguish of my soul. The Lord cares for His children that are hurting. This little ones do't have a voice, but God has given me a voice to speak for these precious little ones. My heart has been moved to serve the children of India... Furthermore, as some of you know I started an orphanage ministry 7 years ago... It was my passion, but the enemy robbed that passion away and now the Lord has reminded me of it. Oh Lord you are so good to me! So here is to the start of a new journey! 

I pray that you will be encouraged through this blog and that God will reveal more of His heart for His children. Thank you for reading 

His Promises

This week I have spent it in the Grand Canyon with my family and my intentions of coming were to be the hands and feet of Jesus to them, but God has been revealing so much to me about who He has made me to be and where He is leading me.

Going 2 years back while I was in Romania doing missions work for 2 months I shared a room with 3 of my best friends and one day we decided to just have a prayer night in our room and hear Gods voice. As we were still we prayed to the Lord to reveal to us where He wanted us to go. Was it to start an orphanage in Nicaragua together? or serve Him somewhere else? As we were sitting still I did not hear anything which was rare for me. But as we were going to sleep I prayed to the Lord to show me in my dream. So during my sleep God gave me dream. I was in a small broken down old car and the car ended up breaking down so I took it to the shop where they were taking forever to fix it and I knew I had to be somewhere, so it finally was fixed! As I started driving I was going up a hill and place that looked just like the Grand Canyon. As I was going up the hill the car kept taking forever to get up the hill and I was anxious to get up to the top of the hill ASAP. I finally got to the top of the hill and there was an airport and as I ran in to check my bags they told me that I could not take the clothes I was taking, but I asked why? "it's so HOT there." It took me a minute to think it through if I should go but I said, "take it all!" As I got on the plane it landed somewhere where there was tents and thousands of African children eating on mats on the ground eating Ugali and I sat down and I said, "I am finally home!"

God has me on a beautiful journey with Him of romance and adventure. As the dream he gave me when the car broke down He was doing something new in me and equipping me that was IMPACT 195 and going up the hill of the Grand Canyon was the journey He is taking me with Him which India is part of  it. There will be  times in the journey when I want to run but  I just have to enjoy the ride and the view which is my daddy Abba. Then when I got to the top and said I won't take my luggage is when I will be at a point where I truly will die to who I am. Then finally getting to the end of my journey is Africa. I don't know when that end will be but right now I am enjoying the journey he has me on and what He is doing through me. 

Today was a reminder of how He keep His promises. As I looked out to the Canyon I saw this beautiful rainbow and I heard the Lord say I am faithful to finish the work I have started in you. I don't have to strive, I don't need to be anyone else but who God made me, all I need to do is sit back and enjoy the beautiful work He is doing in me. I get to be part of this grand adventure with Him! I get to serve Him! 

As the day ended I looked to the sky and I saw His face in the clouds. He spoke to me you are my beloved and I delight in you. As He reached His hand out to me he said dance with me my beloved. At that moment I felt freedom! I realized that His promises never change and that I am the daughter of the king of kings! I am His and He is mine...