Giving UP!

Lately God has been challenging me in some huge ways. Starting IMPACT 196 (www.therockuniversity.org/impact195/) has changed my life. I don't even know who I am anymore, but I know why because God is molding me to be more like Him everyday. God has broken my heart into beautiful. He has taken the bad and turned it into good. It has been scary, but I am now truly living!

I am giving up on my hopes and dreams! I am done planning my life. I am done having control and how God needs to bless me, or how things should work. I am giving up! To this point I have been planning my life and where God is taking me. I was leaving on a long term trip to Nicaragua this week, but God had different plans and sent me to IMPACT. However, I  was still was planning on leaving to Nicaragua when I was done with the program, and nothing was going to stop me. I had it all planned out, but God has been stripping me away from everything.

During our 3 day worship and fast God told me these 3 words GO, WILL, and OBEDIENT. I was like ok Jesus. I need to go and do your will and be obedient in Nicaragua. "Well I know that God." But he was like "NO" "GO and do what I say,"" do my WILL and not yours," "be OBEDIENT to where I am telling you to go." and me: "I was planning everything all this time and now you are taking this away?" I needed to surrender my hopes and dreams. I have always been striving for what is least all my life, when God has always had something bigger for me!

I am giving up all my hopes and dreams and following God's dreams for me. God has confirmed that I will not be serving out in the missions field alone, but with my beautiful Australian friend Trish. She is on fire for Jesus and us two together are just burning flame! Also, God has been putting Mozambique, Africa in my heart. I have no idea why! But I am in prayer about it. Maybe that is where God is leading me for now, but praying and leaving it in God's hands.

God is so good to us! Blessings!