This is God!

Wow where should I start!! God is so amazing and now I know why he has me here in the States for now. Yes, he has revealed it to me! IMPACT 195 http://www.therockuniversity.org/impact195/ 

IMPACT 195 is a program that equips people to go out into the missions field and also to do some deep spiritual searching of who we are in God. 

How do I know this is God? Well how can I know this is not God LOL. As I walked into the Rock Church yesterday I saw a sign to IMAPCT 195 then I remembered my friend Amanda was telling me about it. Then I walked up to the lady just to ask questions and she prayed for me then she told me here is an application because this program is clearly for you. I looked at her and just felt like God was telling me that. I always told God " I am never going to the Rock Church" "Heck no!"Don't ever make me go there." The only reason I was there yesterday was to see the play my friends directed and played in. As I was sitting in my seat God said "GO!" in a clear voice like I never heard before. I was like this is some crazy S*&%! Then I was like ok God I am going home to apply for this just to see what happens. Then some girl called me while I was at work today but I did not answer. Then when I got home i decided to call just to see. This lady answered my call. She started speaking to me about the program and what it involved and I asked a couple of questions. I told her about Nicaragua and how I want to be equipped before I go into the missions field. But I told he that God keeps telling the word RESTORATION. This whole day he has been haunting me with this word. Then it clicked God wants to restore my heart form what has happened in the past... Then the lady told me well that is what you will get with this program. God confirmed through her that that is where God wanted me. Then when we were done she told me " I am the director of this program." " I never really answer the phone, but for some reason I felt I needed to answer this call." This was God! This is God! My mind was blown away! 

Please continue to pray for me that God will open the doors for me to attend this program. I know if God is calling me he will provide, but without people like you I can't make this happen. Classes start May 10th. I know this is last minute, but the director this is normal and God works through this. I need to raise $6000 in order to do this program. But I know God wants me to do this before I head to Nicaragua. I need that restoration and to be equipped to be my best for God's kingdom. Please pray with me through this and please let me know your thoughts.


IT IS TIME FOR HEALING AND RESTORATION before I leave to Nicaragua! AMEN!

Check out the video for IMPACT 195: 

God bless you all! 

Oh my GOSH!

I have never been so sure about doing something my whole life. I have never been so excited to do something! Words can't even describe what I am about to do! 

Matthew 10

God calls us to leave everything behind and go out and bring kingdom to the nations. 

Is everyone called to do this? 

NO! 

He has called each one of us to different callings for his kingdom. Mine is to be a missionary in Nicaragua long term. Maybe 2 year or even 20 years! 

I really don't know how long, but I do know he is sending me to Africa long term too but a long ways from now. God has so much to teach me before I can even head to Africa. 

I am leaving everything I have ever known behind. It can be scary, but I know I am doing what God has called me. I am selling everything I have to pay off all my bills and be debt free when I leave. As of now I want to live like it was my last day here on earth. I want to give it my all, live it to the fullest, and take every risk I can. I am going to trust God with all of my life. 

I won't live in fear anymore of "what if?"

I am FREE! 

Vision:

God has given me a dream about what I will be doing in Nicaragua.
My friend and I will be starting an orphanage/ center. 

Discipleship  youth

Build relationships

Church ministry

Love

When: 

3 months from now! 

How: 

Through faithful servants for God's kingdom 

(Donations)

Faith<3

Please continue to join me in prayer over these three months <3 

God is going to do some amazing things! 

This is Nicaragua (video)

A calling to Nicaragua

I have decided to do a video blog on how God has called me to Nicaragua. Hope you enjoy!

Doing God's will

As I sit here in the airport with tears falling from my face. I don't even know why I cry? But then I realized I have a burning passion for missions and reaching God's children in other countries. Many people don't understand that calling because only few are chosen to be missionary's. God has called each one of us to many different things because we are the body of Christ and one can not work with out the other one. We all build up the body of Christ. I can give you a description of how it feels to leave a country, for example, like when you leave home for the first time and leave everything you have ever loved. That is how is how I felt when I left Nicaragua this time.

In my past missionary work I have fallen in love with many countries and have felt called to those countries, but doors have closed. Some people may say to me "you change your mind all the time." But you know what I am searching for God's will in my life and I don't think there is anything wrong with that. Sometimes we just have to walk in faith that maybe it will happen and if dose not then we should pick ourselves back up and try again because all that Satan wants is for us to give up! Don't ever give him the honor.

Awhile back before I got to Nicaragua God gave me a dream of an orphanage, but it was a ranch with horses and animals in Nicaragua. I never really ever dream and when I do it is God. Then a day later I called my friend Rachel and told her I had this dream and she told me that her sister and her were talking about doing something like that in Nicaragua. Now that just tells you that is GOD all right there! Then a couple of days later I had another dream about it. It was a couple of days before I left to Nicaragua. Also, to remind you I was not going to go to Nicaragua because there was so much going on and I did not have the funds to do it. But God put a huge burden in my heart to go. He put that burning desire that I had to go and I booked my ticket last minute. It was the best thing I have ever done! I know God has called me to something bigger and the beginning is in this country. The nation of Nicaragua!

To tell you the truth I can not even write everything in this blog of what God did though me and others! OMG!! God moved in Nicaragua and through me! People were encouraged, freed for the first time, loved, were freed from demons, etc...It was for me as well I was able to grow in so many ways and learn to truly love God with all of my heart more then I have ever had. God broke me! I laughed, I cried, I fell to my knees, I loved, I hugged, I encouraged, but all for God's kingdom.!

I hope to tell you all may stories of the people I met along the way that God transformed through his might power. HE is AMAZING!

Breaking the Chains

Has it been already to weeks since I came to Nicaragua? Wow! Time goes by so fast when your having fun. Nicaragua has been one of the most challenging times for me. It has been the first time I have done a missions trip on my own and not with a group of people. I have been able to hang out and encourage some of the local missionaries here in Nicaragua, but I have also seen the struggles and everyday battles that have gone through. I never really knew how hard missions work was until I got here. But I have never fell so much in love with God in one place before. I have seen the darkness in this place. I have seen the hopelessness, My hear breaks for the youth here and the children, well I would say for everyone!

This weekend I was able to plan out a youth retreat for the youth at the church I am working with. We took everyone to a farm in the middle of no where. We slept outside, froze to death, cooked with wood, did not shower, got stung by wasps, slept with chickens, etc... It was an adventure in its self. But best of all chains were BROKEN! I felt God was telling me that I needed to speak about the lies of Satan that we hear. The lies that ties us down from truly know how much God loves us, but how we are free from condemnation through Jesus Christ.
 

As I shared my testimony about my life and how I was a broken teenager that was addicted to drugs and alcohol. Also being told I will never be someone in live that I was worthless. I was a broken teen. Those lies from my past took a toll in my Christian life until a year ago I was set free because I was worthy to be LOVED by God. He made me worthy. As I said my testimony to there kids all I could see is their heads shake in agreement of how they felt the same way as when I was a teenager. Then I asked all of them to grab a piece of wood and to write down ever lie Satan or anyone has ever told them... I told them this was the day that we were going to be set free from every lie and everything that is holding us back from truly experiencing the love of God. As we started a fire outside I told the teens we are going to burn this piece if wood with all the lies we have ever believed...

As the songs were playing I prayed to God saying thank you for the freedom he has given us and that we will not believe these lies anymore!!!! We all bowed our heads and just prayed to God and I told them when they were ready to bur those lies they could get up and throw it in the fire. I could see their faces and how so many of them have been hurt in so many ways. One by one they would put the wood in the fire to burn those lies forever! Then I asked them to grab something from the ground and throw it in the fire and scream out I am FREE from ____ what ever they felt they needed to say! As they went up some were in tears, but God was breaking them free form all of those lies they have all believed their whole lives. God did some amazing this in that retreat. I had so many kids come up to me and say that they were told by their own parents that they were scum! That they would cut themselves, use drugs, and were depressed. I praise God that I was able to be there for them that day. To tell them that they are loved children of God

Thank you so much for reading this story and all for your prayers. God bless!

You're the God of this city...

I arrived in Jenotepe, Nicaragua 3 days ago and I feel like I have been here for a month already. I have enjoyed these three days of making lots of new friends. Right now I am working with a church ministry. I am living with my friend Rachel and the pastors of the church family. I am very blessed to be surrounded around so many Godly people.

I really don't know where to start... There has been so much going on that I really can't start telling you how amazing it is here. In my whole life I have never seen so many people starving in Central America. Nicaragua reminds me of Africa, but with Latinos. It is considered the 2nd poorest in the western hemisphere, Haiti is number 1. My heart breaks for the people here in every way.

Yesterday, as I walked into one of the barrios (small village) I felt darkness and spiritual warfare. My heart just stopped and it skipped a breath. I felt the darkness that the people live in. As I started to walk away to the streets I started to worship God singing "you're the God of this City" I started to pray for the village. I raised my hands up to Jesus to break the chains of drugs, alcohol, depression, suicide, and violence! People were just staring at me like I was a crazy lady! hahahaha... I am a crazy lady for JESUS!

Nicaragua is a broken country. It thirst for Jesus. I can tell you that 75% of families here don't grow up in a home with a father, and if they do their father beats up the the mother for drugs or alcohol. This is a country of the fatherless, but you know what? God is their Father! He loves them more then I could ever love them.

Today I was able to spend time with a very special family that has stolen my heart. God blessed me with a few extra dollars that I was able to take them out to a restaurant for the first time. I told them that they could order anything they wanted and they all screamed with a cheer of JOY. As we finished our meal the mom told me thank you and that this was the first meal that they have eaten in 3 days.I can't imagine going hungry for 3 days. This family grew up in an abusive home and one of the children were sexually molested... My heart just hurts!!!!!

Why do we still stand there and let this happen? We go on with our normal lives and live the same way that we are comfortable with. You might read this story and say "wow this is sad" then go back to the same way you are living. Why if this was your family? your child? We are children of God. These are God children!

Please lift up Nicaragua up in prayer and for my time here. Thank you for reading this and for being part of this journey with me.